Epic epic epic screwup of the century.
I've got no ability to think anymore. I'm pretty much a mindless drone who drives around and does music rehearsals and does too many and ends up much worse off because of it. Would you believe I thought tomorrow was tuesday? I really did. No idea why.
My endless week is 5/7 over and it's still endless. I have never felt so stressed or so tired, and I just need a few days off. I think. It'll solve all my problems, but I can't take days off at any time during the week and I just lost my only spare morning.
Grumble.
I'm finding though that as long as I spend time with God, I feel better. All my problems simply go away for a while. It's nice and relaxing, and I have time to have a nice long chat to God about what I did today (not that He doesn't know!) and any desires that I might have (He knows already, but you still need to ask.) and any problems I may have had. The longer I spend, the less tired I feel, although sometimes I suddenly drift off and forget that I'm praying. I have to try and not do that haha.
Well, I have some things to try and resolve. Prayer helps, and it will always help. It's always worth spending more time in prayer. I need to change my habits
You are most certainly not a screwup! You've just finally found the limit of how much you can take on before you crack a little more under the weight of it. Hopefully this serves as a good enough deterrent from overcommitting so much again, and through this, you've learnt a little more and again that the only thing we can do is rely on God to get us through our stupidity XD I have an excellent proposal, one which I would take myself if I wasn't all like YEAH LET'S DO A CHAMBER REHEARSAL THAT WHOLE DAY FRICKIN YES - don't do -anything- on Wednesday!! :D It is the Ekka holiday so no wooni and therefore it is my order that you sleep in, eat a good breakfast, and spend the day reading or praying or whatever it is you want to do. Even pokemans :P
ReplyDeleteAlternatively you could just go to the ekka, catch the swine, and be incapacitated well and truly for a week or so. But that would include pain and sickness moreso and that would suck.
Your choice!